Kickin' ass and takin' names since 1991.

I've been knocked down before....plenty of times....I've been kicked while I'm down....beaten badly while I'm down w/ anything anyone could get their hands on....and I've always gotten back up until I fell down again...but this kinda of down is different to me...it's strange and new, I don't think I've been down like this before. It's like it's beyond down....I'm not just down...I'm out. That's what it feels like. I feel all empty inside, just hollowed out...it feels like someone just ripped my heart right out of my chest w/out even touching me. And the rooms is starting to spin, & I feel a little nauseas. My fingers don't wanna move right on this keyboard & I can barely understand what's happening. I hate my mental breakdowns. They happen so quiet & I don't realize it...it's like falling asleep for me almost....my biiran just satarts to shuts sdownas. & thihngs get blusrry. I need a drunk of somethigns lie milek or juice or maybe some nice water, nice refehsrishing water....astay.....